Next week, I’m headed to Sewing Summit for the first time and, on one hand, I am so very excited. I’m signed up for all sorts of sessions that should help me take my blog to the next level and teach me skills to help my dream of running a pattern company in the future. I’m excited to meet other sewing enthusiasts. I’m eagerly anticipating being surrounded with inspiration and enthusiasm and energy.
On the other hand, I’m feel pretty anxious. I’m worried that I’m not going to be cool enough. That everyone but me will make new friends. That my clothes won’t be interesting or unique or well-made enough. That I’ll feel like an outsider.
I know I’m being silly. The online sewing community is a wonderful, supportive, open community, so why would it be any different in person? But part of me feels like the awkward, nerdy kid, headed off to the first day of school where I know, yet again, that the cool kids are going to pick on me, that I’ll be the last to be picked in gym class. And then I feel really silly for being a grown adult and still having such schoolyard insecurities.
I guess I’m writing this because putting it down in words makes it seem more conquerable. And I guess I’m hoping for some inspirational words. Can anyone else relate? Is anyone else going and having similar feelings?