Anyone that has ever spent any time around me knows that I am prone to frequently bursting into thematic bouts of song as if my life were a musical (and I certainly have fantasies about the rest of the world joining in around me, although that never quite seems to happen). To talk about being shy, I’ve got to burst into the song Shy from the musical Once Upon A Mattress (that somehow I was cast in twice in high school, but that’s another tangent).
I confess it, I’m shy!
Can you guess that this confident air is a mask that I wear ’cause I’m shy?
And you may be sure that deep down I’m demure.
Though some people I know might deny it, at the bottom I’m quiet and pure.
God knows I try, though I’m frightened and shy.
And despite the impression I give, I confess that I’m living a lie.
Because I’m actually. terribly. timid. and horribly shy.
For those of you unfamiliar with Once Upon a Mattress, go watch the amazing Carol Burnett do her version of Shy and come back.
Like Winifred in Once Upon a Mattress, when people first meet me, they usually assume that I’m confident and outgoing since I’m generally pretty expressive, flamboyant, and loud in both personality and clothing. But in all actuality, I’m not. This confident air is a mask that I wear because I’m shy. I’m nervous meeting new people, I don’t like talking to strangers, and I don’t like crowds.
I’ve always been a flamboyant dresser. When I was younger, I think my clothes were something that I hid behind. Now that I’m a bit older and more comfortable in myself, my dressing is a bit less flamboyant but also more an expression of myself. Sort of a fake-it-til-you-make-it. By making bold sartorial choices I encourage myself to truly be bold.
Are you shy? Do you dress like you are shy?
Each week this year I’m going to reflect on an aspect of myself and how it affects me as a sewist, crafter, or blogger. It may get deep, it may get emotional, it may get totally silly. It may be something I’m proud of, it may be something I cringe at, it may be something I aspire to. I may say a lot, I may say a little, I may ask questions, I may not answer them. I don’t quite know where the project will take me, but I’m excited about the journey. I’d be honored to have you join me on this journey. Chime in any time this year in my blog comments, on Twitter, Instagram, or your own blog. Join me in my theme for the week or make up your own.