I know that both both of my posts this week already make it clear that I’m pregnant (my big announcement and my first maternity clothes), but, for me, part of talking about sewing is talking about body image and I wanted to take a moment to discuss my changing body.
Pregnancy is weird. I feel like I’m going through puberty again. My body is rapidly changing size and shape in ways that are out my control and like nothing I have been through before (to say nothing of the raging hormones that come with both puberty and pregnancy). I don’t recognize myself in the mirror from one day to another. And I know it has only just begun…
My body has been pretty much the same size and shape since I went through puberty which has been a major boon to my ability to look at a garment and judge how it will fit. When sewing simple garments like t-shirts and knit skirts, I can just eyeball a garment outline right onto the fabric with chalk without even needing a pattern. And I most definitely can not do that now, and it’s a little discombobulating.
Having my wardrobe rapidly drop to just a few things that I either raided from my mom’s closet or found at the thrift store has been hard on me too. As I say, I look at every day as a chance to play dress up, and having a tiny selection of clothes that don’t really feel like “me” has been challenging. Not only does my body not feel like mine, but I can’t dress it in a way that feels like “me” either. I know this will change a bit soon, now that I have enough energy to do some sewing again. But it’s another weird change that has also been discombobulating.
Have you been through a rapid change in size or shape that made it hard to feel like “you”?
Have you had a shrunken wardrobe that made it hard to dress like “you”?
Each week this year I’m going to reflect on an aspect of myself and how it affects me as a sewist, crafter, or blogger. It may get deep, it may get emotional, it may get totally silly. It may be something I’m proud of, it may be something I cringe at, it may be something I aspire to. I may say a lot, I may say a little, I may ask questions, I may not answer them. I don’t quite know where the project will take me, but I’m excited about the journey. I’d be honored to have you join me on this journey. Chime in any time this year in my blog comments, on Twitter, Instagram, or your own blog. Join me in my theme for the week or make up your own.