By saying “I Am an Imposter” I think of Big Eyes and picture Adam secretly sewing all my clothes while I get the credit, and that’s a pretty good laugh. Speaking of funny, it’s a funny thing, the tricks that our mind plays on us. Some days I can be proud of my accomplishments – “I’m off to a good start with my business – I was on TV, I had another magazine article published, I’ve gotten great feedback on my most recent pattern!”. And then on other days – “I don’t know what I’m doing and as soon as others figure that out everything will crash around me.”
Imposter syndrome is particularly prevalent in women and I’ve had many discussions with close female friends who have felt the same. (Sidenote, we went to graduate school together and imposter syndrome is also particularly prevalent in graduate students and was certainly also a problem for me when I was in graduate school). But imposter syndrome certainly isn’t just a “woman’s thing” as I was talking about it last week with a close male friend who is faculty at Harvard (and his Harvard post-doc wife). And it’s not just a “scientist or grad student thing” as my husband also struggles with it and he’s a successful businessman who didn’t go through higher education.
It’s been interesting watching how imposter syndrome has shifted into my SeamstressErin space. On my blog now, like when I was in graduate school, I’m perfectly happy to show off things that I have sewn (aside from occasionally feeling awkward in photoshoots) and flaunt them in all their glory. But as soon as I’m talking about a business accomplishment, imposter thoughts creep in. Sometimes I brush the thoughts aside, sometimes I really struggle with them.
So I guess this is a call to myself to recognize imposter thoughts when they arise and set them aside. I am confident in myself. I am confident in my abilities. I have worked very hard to get where I am. I am NOT an imposter.
Have you struggled with imposter thoughts? Do they ever affect your sewing or blogging?
Each week this year I’m going to reflect on an aspect of myself and how it affects me as a sewist, crafter, or blogger. It may get deep, it may get emotional, it may get totally silly. It may be something I’m proud of, it may be something I cringe at, it may be something I aspire to. I may say a lot, I may say a little, I may ask questions, I may not answer them. I don’t quite know where the project will take me, but I’m excited about the journey. I’d be honored to have you join me on this journey. Chime in any time this year in my blog comments, on Twitter, Instagram, or your own blog. Join me in my theme for the week or make up your own.