March stressed me out. I was so excited about taking part in a bunch of fun activities in the online sewing community – Block of the Month quilt, Sew for Victory, Mad Men Challenge (post coming tomorrow!), Stashbusting Sewalong. For the first two weeks of the month it was exciting. I had all these ideas and plans and things to work on. And then I was out of town for a week. And then I was sick for the last week of the month. Too sick to sew.
Any time I got a bit of energy I dragged myself to the sewing machine because I wanted to finish the projects I had planned. All the planning and sewing was for naught if I couldn’t get it done to post by the deadline, right? I got my Sew for Victory post up hours before the (extended) deadline. I didn’t finish the Stashbusting top that I really wanted, but I had sewed something else already that worked. I didn’t realize the Mad Men Challenge didn’t end at the end of the month, so I got everything done and started writing the post at 10pm , 3/31/13, while sick and exhausted. And it wasn’t fun.
In the rush to meet deadlines, I lost track of why I do this in the first place. Why I’m part of an online community, why I take part in challenges and sewalongs – because it’s fun. It’s creative. And it makes me happy. I don’t really know what do do differently in the future, since it all would have been fine had I not gotten sick. I guess I need to work on letting it go if I don’t meet my goals. But that’s something I’ve never been very good at…
So, for the month of April I have one goal – start sewing a jacket. If I get a stashbusting piece done, that’s great. If I get my block-of-the-month done, that’s great. If I get inspired and jump into another community based project, that’s great too. But the only thing I’m going to hold myself to is to start working on a tailored, green velvet jacket.